For the past three years when I thought of you all I could see and feel was pain from the loss of you. Something has shifted recently and I have been able to let in the memories, the love, the laughter and the tears. I've been able to remember you - not as you left us but as you were - the beautiful, kind, generous, giving, witty, cheeky little chops. You still remain firmly by my side even though you are not here in person anymore. Trusting you as always to show me the way.